Karnival 4 KL - extreme games

and the last one is the pic of my new beloved lens! welcoming the TAMRON AF17-50mm F/2.8 Di-II LD Aspherical SP :D

haih, this is an expensive hobby to be frank. it has ALWAYS been. haha. but the hell with the costs, i'm lovin this and i would work hard for it ;) buttt, i dun have that much people around that's serious in photography like i am for me to drag them along for a photo hunting session yet. balik la cepat Edwan! haha. i need to start experimenting with the new lens soon~

life has been pretty much the same since i came back. some things did change. but me? not that much. i'm stronger for sure, but i'm still bitter, highly irritable, sensitive, short tempered and not appreciative. maybe this is the so called "self-worthiness disease" i'm experiencing post-breakdown. i tend to dismiss people's opinion, feel highly of myself and ultimately, can be extra ignorant and behave in an anti-social manner. sigh~

i need motivation. commitments will provide me that. i do hope i'll get a job real real soon. i'm not being myself. i need to get on my own feet again. hence, i need inspiration as well. i want a jobbb! call me crazy, but i cant stand being job-less anymore, its killing meee. ;P

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We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye,
and ask for forgiveness.
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.

So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.

Incubus - Dig

botanic gardens - various

Thorns - thorns of a plant in the Botanic Gardens (again, i dont know the name of the plant). an attempt to do a selective focusing of a repetitive pattern.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/3000
  
• Aperture: f2.0
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: B&W, contrast boost, cropped, lens vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Paklan antiquetted - newly experimented preset in Adobe Lightroom 2, just to get the jizz of creating a vintage/antique look.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/1000
  
• Aperture: f2.5
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Aged Photo Preset, lens vignette, cropped - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Arch of loneliness - one of the two large archways in the Botanic Gardens. as i took this picture during spring, you can see that it's full of leaves and during autumn/winter, it's left with just the vines - which i think made it look even prettier with the barren look.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/45
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: B&W, contrast boost, saturation and exposure enhancement - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Tiny flowers - ok, ignore the naming part. these tiny little flowers look so cute i cant resist to take a picture of them (damn, that sounds pansy, hahahahaha). anyway, Lightroom did a very good job with it's built in creative preset to produce this picture (with high green contrast).

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/2000
  
• Aperture: f1.8
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Direct Positive Preset, lens vignette, saturation and exposure enhancement - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

it's time again. i felt so awkward and out of place - i dont feel right. too many questions left unanswered in my life recently - this has not happened before. prior to (insert the reality here). i've been too sensitive, grumpy and fragile. i'm mad at everyone, mad at the world as edwan may say to me. so, here's a general apology to everyone affected: i'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. i dont intend to bring any harm and cause any damage to any of you.

i'm glad that i finally ended university for good. not to mention, with considerable achievements. congratulations to me then...haha just pray that nothing will be further changed. i'm content with what i've accomplished :) Alhamdulillah...so next: aerospace engineer. uhh, this happened so quick i freaked out :|

no rush, i'm not gonna be working until after january 2009 maybe...

haha, i guess i'll be blogging as much as photography then :)

p/s: visit my flickr page for more accurate colours of the photos i uploaded here. it seems that the colours reproduced by picasa are not accurate enough...

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I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you...

Kings of Leon - Use Somebody