leaving

today, i'm leaving. i'm leaving the place that brought me up to this point. that prepared me for the future i'm facing.

leaving.

and also, from this point onwards, i'm gonna leave. i'm moving on. it aint gonna be easy to me, but staying wont do any good. believe me, it has been wonderful. and i cant describe it any better with words.

moving on.

life has been empty presently. i've lost my bearing of pursuit. still, i cant afford to fail myself. hence, change is inevitable.

change.

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today is going to be an occasion full of emotions.

2008: the year where i fell to the bottom. and reached the top. i think thats the ultimate price to be paid. things happen for a reason. and for the things that had happened, i'm content, and i'm grateful. alhamdulillah...

praise be to Him.

for the bad things - i wish i could mend everything back again...and i apologise, from the bottom of my heart

sorry for being very emotional in this post ;P i just feel like writing...lastly, i would like to thank everyone for everything, i would like to apologise for everything i did wrong. i had a great time here in Adelaide. halalkan makan dan minum. i do appreciate everything you, you and every single one of you had done to help, etc etc. aaa, i suck at this...hehe, so i hope, everyone will understand :)

accomplishment

ahh, finally. i managed to get some time to keep up/update/write/reply comments/etc. huhu

schedule's been full ever since the preparation for graduation, packing up stuff, chores and finally the arrival of my family, the graduation itself and also the family trip to Gold Coast; hence the accomplishment. i've finally ended my 4-long-years of bachelor studies and did what i'm supposed to do and planned and also things that should be expected.

too quick, i freaked out.

i really did freaked. struck me unconsciously. 4 years in Adelaide - gone. next: work, and this signifies the fact that i'm no longer a student. i have my own degree. erk...aaa, i still cant grab this firmly yet. but this cant go on any longer, i need to move on.

Get Free
this pic was taken by my bro, inspired by himself as well. edited by me la tapi. ngahaha, nak credit juge. this was at Glenelg :) EXIF? lain kali je lah. hahaha

by the way, to those who followed my blog, i apologise for not updating for quite some time. again: been busy. hehe. i'll try to commit to this blog more seriously after i've arrived back at my home town k? later~

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I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
Ride into the sun
She never loved me
She never loved me
She never loved me
Why should anyone?

The Vines - Get Free

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Paramore - Decode

and by the way! i didnt watch Twilight k? i'm not a fan, and not fit for those kind of movies :|

i am lazy

self explanatory. i am lazy for now. actually, am busy spring cleaning, unpacking all the old stuff and sorting out things to be brought back later on when i'm leaving.

i want to leave.

i cant wait to leave.

but i surely am gonna miss this place. the best memories will always be from this point backwards. school is where the fun starts. school was the place where fun started. and i truly gonna cherish this :)

photos, some time later on k. huhu ;)

botanic gardens - various 2

Carolus Linnaeus's Bust - as told by yas, "he invented this classification system for all living things; groups them into taxonomy classes" or click his name for Wikipedia's description. hehe. oh yeah, FYI, the warp-ish effect at the back is caused by the very2 shallow depth of field, hence the crazy bokeh :D

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
  
• Shutter: 1/750
  
• Aperture: f1.8
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Contrast and saturation enhancement, Direct Positive preset, sharpening, cropped, lens vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

A bee in a rose - why didnt i crop and enlarge the pic to the bee itself? because i dont know how to adjust the composition to make this pic interesting. aaa. haha. yup, this is a bunch of roses, mini roses :D

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/1000
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Cropped, Direct Positive preset, exposure and saturation enhancements, sharpening - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Ladybird - there were lots of ladybirds in the Rose Garden that day. i guess it was their mating season as it was spring that time. and summer baru la nak upload kan. haha. anyway, the colour reproduced by picasa is not that accurate and to be honest i hate it. sigh, need to start linking my pics to flickr then~

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/180
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Cropped, Direct Positive preset, sharpening, post-crop vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Tree trunk - we walked under the tree trunk to cross to the i-dunno-what garden, the hole's large enough for an adult to go through. hahaha. i dunno why there's a big hole under the tree tho, maybe its just natural :-" anyway, the misty look is caused by what, i dunno myself. maybe just from the bleeding light from above.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/180
  
• Aperture: f4.0
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Vibrance, saturation and contrast enhancement, sharpening, lens vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

aaa, more and more people are going back home to their home country (macam la akunye home country lain kan) i.e. Malaysia. and lesser people left here to rot with BOREDOM -_-"

what else can i do, watching movies everynight don't really entertain me that much, playing pool+bowling will dig my pockets deeper :O haha. conclusion: i just cant wait to go back home! aaaaaa...nak grad cpt2!

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some things are better left unsaid, unknown, unspoken, uncovered. these are so typical.

still, i need to surrender to that. to live, to move on, to continue surviving. i have a life to live. i still have friends to cherish. parents to care. i will be strong...

pain

oh pain, please go away.
you're killing me softly.

botanic gardens - various

Thorns - thorns of a plant in the Botanic Gardens (again, i dont know the name of the plant). an attempt to do a selective focusing of a repetitive pattern.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/3000
  
• Aperture: f2.0
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: B&W, contrast boost, cropped, lens vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Paklan antiquetted - newly experimented preset in Adobe Lightroom 2, just to get the jizz of creating a vintage/antique look.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/1000
  
• Aperture: f2.5
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Aged Photo Preset, lens vignette, cropped - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Arch of loneliness - one of the two large archways in the Botanic Gardens. as i took this picture during spring, you can see that it's full of leaves and during autumn/winter, it's left with just the vines - which i think made it look even prettier with the barren look.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/45
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: B&W, contrast boost, saturation and exposure enhancement - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Tiny flowers - ok, ignore the naming part. these tiny little flowers look so cute i cant resist to take a picture of them (damn, that sounds pansy, hahahahaha). anyway, Lightroom did a very good job with it's built in creative preset to produce this picture (with high green contrast).

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/2000
  
• Aperture: f1.8
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Direct Positive Preset, lens vignette, saturation and exposure enhancement - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

it's time again. i felt so awkward and out of place - i dont feel right. too many questions left unanswered in my life recently - this has not happened before. prior to (insert the reality here). i've been too sensitive, grumpy and fragile. i'm mad at everyone, mad at the world as edwan may say to me. so, here's a general apology to everyone affected: i'm truly sorry from the bottom of my heart. i dont intend to bring any harm and cause any damage to any of you.

i'm glad that i finally ended university for good. not to mention, with considerable achievements. congratulations to me then...haha just pray that nothing will be further changed. i'm content with what i've accomplished :) Alhamdulillah...so next: aerospace engineer. uhh, this happened so quick i freaked out :|

no rush, i'm not gonna be working until after january 2009 maybe...

haha, i guess i'll be blogging as much as photography then :)

p/s: visit my flickr page for more accurate colours of the photos i uploaded here. it seems that the colours reproduced by picasa are not accurate enough...

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I've been roaming around
Always looking down at all I see
Painted faces, fill the places I cant reach

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody

Someone like you, And all you know, And how you speak
Countless lovers under cover of the street

You know that I could use somebody
You know that I could use somebody
Someone like you...

Kings of Leon - Use Somebody

botanic gardens - flowers galore (updated)

Nyphamaea caerulea - "Blue Lotus of Egypt"

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/2000
• Aperture: f1.8
• ISO: 100
• Focal length: 50 mm
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Lens vignette, saturation and details enhancement - Adobe Camera Raw

the above picture was taken at the Amazon Waterlily Pavilion of the Adelaide Botanic Gardens. attempted to capture a symmetry-ish picture, tapi takdela skema sgt kan. aaa, i suck at flowers, so i dont really know what to write bout this. haha. to appreciate this: it's quite a nice looking flower ;P

Pink flower with a yellow centre surrounded by 5 red spots (haha, i didnt pay attention to the flower labelling back then, so sape2 yg tau, sile inform ;P)

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/90
  
• Aperture: f9.5
  
• ISO: 100
• Focal length: 50 mm
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Lens vignette, saturation and details enhancement - Adobe Lightroom 2 (yay! damn awesome software!)

ok, i didnt pay attention to the labels given for these flowers. the first flower pun i stumbled upon the label in one of the pics i took. hence the scientific name written in the caption. and the second one, I DONT KNOW. so anyone, please tell me if u know. haha. so, these are among the flowers in the botanic gardens of Adelaide. there were more interesting flowers over there and also from other occasions, but i'm so lazy to browse through all of my pics (now almost reached 8000+ excluding last year's collection of another 4000+), so i'll just upload the recent ones i took. aaa, people, please give me some support! why am i soooo lazy...... :|

suddenly i felt like playing boardgames plak. i wanna play Monopoly and also the utmost urge of playing Cluedo! what am i gonna do until the grad day! aaaaaaaaaaa...

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up till now, i still cant accept the reality. i kept running, trying to defy my own belief. i wear facades, to avoid people from questioning me of my own reality...

...i think i'm getting tired...things happen, unpredictable things happened. to whom it may concern: i'm sorry for everything. i'll try to stay strong. i'll try to hold on. change is inexorable. but only time will decide, time will choose the change.

memories last forever...time will choose...

rundle mall

The White Guy @ Rundle Mall

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/250
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Kelvin scale alteration, lens vignette, saturation and details enhancement - Adobe Camera Raw

"a gold coin will make bla3 something" la to this guy. hehe basically if u donate gold coins ($1 or $2 here in Australia) will make him move and perform from standing still. i don't really remember what was written on a cardboard in front of this White Guy though ;P. he's a normal busker at Rundle Mall, entertaining people in front of the South Australian's symbolic 2 huge metal balls which are known fondly to the locals as the "Mall's Balls" or "Runde Mall Balls" and originally named "Spheres" by the artist who sculpted this modern sculpture. on to the next one...

the piggy named "Oliver" at Rundle Mall, Adelaide

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/750
  
• Aperture: f1.8
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Lens vignette, saturation and details enhancement - Adobe Camera Raw

this is one of the 4 life-size bronze pig sculptures named "Oliver", and the other 3; "Horatio", "Truffles" and "Agusta". these sculptures were positioned so that they looked like rooting around a rubbish bin (as obviously shown above).

aaa, well, these are among the attractions here in Adelaide and Rundle Mall, specifically. AND not pathetically limited to these je! haha. more to come~ critics and comments are very welcomed

being preoccupied with getaways for now!

something is lost...but hoping still...

blur

i just don't feel right. i don't know. plainly don't know.

maybe it's the sign of change?

or did i hurt someone?

for some inexplicable reason, i felt empty

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examination

why do i decide to put my finger thereeee...nampak buruk plakkkkk...hahaha anyway, my 1st paper is on this monday! uhhhh...org lain sume dah start exam lame, aku nye baru start. hadoi la...again, wish me luck for this paper, as this will be my saviour to mark up for my sh***y finance paper last 2 weeks. not as sh***y la, but i need it to achieve my Hons target class :D

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
  
• Shutter: 1/20
  
• Aperture: f2.8
  
• ISO: 800 (!!! Canon FTW)
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
  
• Post-processing: Adobe Camera Raw - B&W, lens vignette, contrast boost

as usual, a little babble after the EXIF: knowledge is power. knowledge hurts too. some things should be left unknown. but, for the greater good, knowing will teach you a lot of things in life. knowledge will be your candle in the darkness of nowadays deceptive civilization. keep it in balance though, as you'll need all the knowledge for preparation of the hereafter. anyway, i dunno what i'm talking bout now, so...study hard study smart!

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i can't study! i can't concentrate! someone please ask me to study! haha...

wish me luck...