Karnival 4 KL - extreme games

and the last one is the pic of my new beloved lens! welcoming the TAMRON AF17-50mm F/2.8 Di-II LD Aspherical SP :D

haih, this is an expensive hobby to be frank. it has ALWAYS been. haha. but the hell with the costs, i'm lovin this and i would work hard for it ;) buttt, i dun have that much people around that's serious in photography like i am for me to drag them along for a photo hunting session yet. balik la cepat Edwan! haha. i need to start experimenting with the new lens soon~

life has been pretty much the same since i came back. some things did change. but me? not that much. i'm stronger for sure, but i'm still bitter, highly irritable, sensitive, short tempered and not appreciative. maybe this is the so called "self-worthiness disease" i'm experiencing post-breakdown. i tend to dismiss people's opinion, feel highly of myself and ultimately, can be extra ignorant and behave in an anti-social manner. sigh~

i need motivation. commitments will provide me that. i do hope i'll get a job real real soon. i'm not being myself. i need to get on my own feet again. hence, i need inspiration as well. i want a jobbb! call me crazy, but i cant stand being job-less anymore, its killing meee. ;P

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We all have a weakness
But some of ours are easy to identify. Look me in the eye,
and ask for forgiveness.
We'll make a pact to never speak that word again.
Yes, you are my friend.
We all have something that digs at us,
at least we dig each other.

So when weakness turns my ego up
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday.

If I turn into another
dig me up from under what is covering
the better part of me.
Sing this song
remind me that we'll always have each other
when everything else is gone.

Incubus - Dig

i'm just doing my thing

mind you, the title of this post is a snippet from Estrella's Take It Slow. and yeah, i'm actually doing my thing currently: being a full time penganggur, eldest brother (yeah you know, the usual stuff of picking up younger bros and doing chores -_-") and also a full time (???) job seeker. heee :D

it's already 27th of February, in the year of 2009. it has been just past 2 months that i'm job-less. dammit. plans dont just work the way we wanted them to be eh? to be honest, i expect to get at least interviews around this period. so far, what i've achieved are: a full job application to ExxonMobil through my friend, Arif and also 3 resumes submitted to 3 companies during the UNITEN Career Fair 2 days back. the companies: Schlumberger, Sime Darby and Alstom. pretty impressive huh? the companies, i mean. hehe. so total of 4 applications. i'm hoping for the best. and do wish me the best, you guys out there! ;P

i do wish to apply for General Electric, Shell, Honeywell, Eurocopter and some other aerospace/oil & gas companies out there. the time will come, the time will come. the application process, i mean. haha. oh i've been so damn lazy and procrastinated lots of chores. i have millions of photos need to be edited and posted. yet i felt like i've nothing to do! haha. anyway, i will be concentrating on my job application for the time being. wish me luck! :)

oh and 3 days ago, i went to the Lake Garden (or the less glamourous Taman Tasik Perdana) for a photo outing with my fellow Adelaide colleagues. i was surprised that there were so many places to visit around that area (if any of you know the Tugu Negara area). the places i recall: Bird Park, Butterfly Park, Deer Park, the Lake Garden itself and lots of other parks exist in that area. haha. i will surely visit that place again. and also the Central Market :D

hehe, guess this time around i'm babbling bout the activities i did during my job-less period eh? the emotions can wait ;)

later~

new look+new photo width

so, amacam?

new post!

i'm changing my post style. so here it goes, i'll experiment with different styles first :P

People

notice the same person all over again ;P well, there weren't that many people that can be my models other than the photographers themselves. anyway, lazy is getting lazier. so, this is going to be my post style kot? unless i suddenly found something more interesting. hehe.

i need to take more pics! erk, no, i need to edit more pics faster! huuuu

i've been tagged -_-"

razana tagged me! how dare u...haha

well, i'm bored so lets tag:

1. Do you think you're HOT? - Hot? hmm. i'm hot as in panas je la. haha. i'm no bahan panas.

2. Upload your favourite picture(s) of you -

3. Why do you like that picture? - Hmm, coz the pic looks sooo cool. haha. i guess i'm cool for being in it too ;P run baby run!

4. When was the last time you ate pizza? - Obviously during dominos night with reza and nizam :D

5. The last song u listened to? - The Last Shadow Puppets - The Age of Understatement

6. What r u doing rite now beside this? - Hmm, surfing Engadget, chatting @ YM, listening to my iTunes tracks

7. What name would u prefer besides yours? - Oh, i'm ok with just my name ;)

8. People I Tag:
zzz
kurr
aaa
huh?
erk?
adoi...

haha, i dunno nak tag sape :|

9. Who is no. 1? - My favourite sleeping buddy

10. Who is no. 2? - My favourite tanam anggur buddy

11. Say something about no.5 - When u tanam anggur, u'll always get questions with "erk?" answers

12. How about no. 4? - zzz

13. Who is no. 3? - i cant do thisss

14. Finally, tell about no. 6 - he's got no one to tag lorrr... :P

anew

uhh...it has been quite long. i'm back at Malaysia, Shah Alam to be specific ;) and i'm loving the fact that i'm home again and hopefully, for real and for good. coz you know, there are some things that i dont really look forward to when i came back. huhu. anywayyy, now i'm officially a grape planter. or well known as penganggur. haha. now that i have a degree (which me myself still couldnt grasp the significance of having a degree yet), marks a significant (now i know) point in my life. WORK. damn, that strucked me hard. like my cousin said, "once you work, that's what you're going to do for the rest of your life". so, even though i'm really really damn bored like hell now, i guess i should appreciate the "resting period" i'm having right now.

finally...

i hope i made my parents proud of this. i can never repay every single blood and sweat they shed for me in making me a successful person in life. i cant thank them enough. but, thank you :)
btw, thats my 2nd bro on the left and my youngest bro on the right. the picture was taken by someone (acknowledged) in front of the Elder Hall, The University of Adelaide: 23rd Dec 2008

the best of buddies, Reza and Nizam. before anyone else terase sbb aku tak mention, u guys arent here yet k? ;P these two bastards entertained me while i had a really2 bad time when i first arrived here, coping with this and that and changes as well. i pansily miss you guys. haha. damn, now that i'm alone, what am i going to do. sigh.

what else have i been doing? eat, eat and eat. i spend most of my savings to treat myself a feast or feasts. haha. we (Faizal, his gf Sofia, Reza, me and Nizam who took this picture) went to Muara Seafood Klang and treated ourselves with a seafood feast. i cant say how much i enjoyed the food! eventho i know some people may say its not the best place, but i dont give a damn, i just got back from AUSTRALIA, the land where i cant get Siakap Masak Tiga Rasa, Sotong Goreng Tepung, Udang Masak Sambal, Pari Bakar, Air Kelapa, Nasi Lemak (what we ate there ;P). thinking back, made me drool again! haha.

Malaysia.

back here again. still, some things havent changed. somehow, i didnt saw that many rempits anymore here in Shah Alam (or is it just me?). people still drive insanely fast, which i'm also not sure whether they're running after something or just showing off their big cars or skills of driving or just purely being arrogant? typically Malaysian i think ;P for almost 2 weeks i've settled down here in Shah Alam, i've had a near miss (almost had an accident) for more than 3 times. freaked me out. its just that people didnt care much to give a signal while overtaking/changing lanes and some were just ignorant about their surroundings. sigh, welcome back Syed.

i cant deny myself being a petrol head/speed freak, but i drive sensibly. after all, u cant be slow all the time, coz sometimes being slow increases your chance of getting hit by other fast going cars. bile letak speed limit 110 km/h, bawak 90 je plak kan. sheesh, thats another thing. haha, enough bragging bout Malaysia's Horrible Traffic.

anyway, i guess i should be active (blogging) once again now that i'm bored and lonely. all of my friends are still studying, only few of them worked already, still, none of them are FREE like me. sigh (again).

i welcome myself back to beloved bittersweet Malaysia :)

p/s: sorry to those who checked out my blog now and then to find it not updated ;P

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i aint freakin'
i aint fakin' this
shut up and let me go, hey! :D

leaving

today, i'm leaving. i'm leaving the place that brought me up to this point. that prepared me for the future i'm facing.

leaving.

and also, from this point onwards, i'm gonna leave. i'm moving on. it aint gonna be easy to me, but staying wont do any good. believe me, it has been wonderful. and i cant describe it any better with words.

moving on.

life has been empty presently. i've lost my bearing of pursuit. still, i cant afford to fail myself. hence, change is inevitable.

change.

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today is going to be an occasion full of emotions.

2008: the year where i fell to the bottom. and reached the top. i think thats the ultimate price to be paid. things happen for a reason. and for the things that had happened, i'm content, and i'm grateful. alhamdulillah...

praise be to Him.

for the bad things - i wish i could mend everything back again...and i apologise, from the bottom of my heart

sorry for being very emotional in this post ;P i just feel like writing...lastly, i would like to thank everyone for everything, i would like to apologise for everything i did wrong. i had a great time here in Adelaide. halalkan makan dan minum. i do appreciate everything you, you and every single one of you had done to help, etc etc. aaa, i suck at this...hehe, so i hope, everyone will understand :)

accomplishment

ahh, finally. i managed to get some time to keep up/update/write/reply comments/etc. huhu

schedule's been full ever since the preparation for graduation, packing up stuff, chores and finally the arrival of my family, the graduation itself and also the family trip to Gold Coast; hence the accomplishment. i've finally ended my 4-long-years of bachelor studies and did what i'm supposed to do and planned and also things that should be expected.

too quick, i freaked out.

i really did freaked. struck me unconsciously. 4 years in Adelaide - gone. next: work, and this signifies the fact that i'm no longer a student. i have my own degree. erk...aaa, i still cant grab this firmly yet. but this cant go on any longer, i need to move on.

Get Free
this pic was taken by my bro, inspired by himself as well. edited by me la tapi. ngahaha, nak credit juge. this was at Glenelg :) EXIF? lain kali je lah. hahaha

by the way, to those who followed my blog, i apologise for not updating for quite some time. again: been busy. hehe. i'll try to commit to this blog more seriously after i've arrived back at my home town k? later~

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I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
I'm gonna get free
Ride into the sun
She never loved me
She never loved me
She never loved me
Why should anyone?

The Vines - Get Free

How can I decide what's right?
When you're clouding up my mind
Can't win your losing fight all the time
Not gonna ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
You wont take away my pride
No not this time
Not this time

How did we get here?
I use to know you so well
How did we get here?
Well, I think I know

Paramore - Decode

and by the way! i didnt watch Twilight k? i'm not a fan, and not fit for those kind of movies :|

i am lazy

self explanatory. i am lazy for now. actually, am busy spring cleaning, unpacking all the old stuff and sorting out things to be brought back later on when i'm leaving.

i want to leave.

i cant wait to leave.

but i surely am gonna miss this place. the best memories will always be from this point backwards. school is where the fun starts. school was the place where fun started. and i truly gonna cherish this :)

photos, some time later on k. huhu ;)

botanic gardens - various 2

Carolus Linnaeus's Bust - as told by yas, "he invented this classification system for all living things; groups them into taxonomy classes" or click his name for Wikipedia's description. hehe. oh yeah, FYI, the warp-ish effect at the back is caused by the very2 shallow depth of field, hence the crazy bokeh :D

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
  
• Shutter: 1/750
  
• Aperture: f1.8
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Contrast and saturation enhancement, Direct Positive preset, sharpening, cropped, lens vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

A bee in a rose - why didnt i crop and enlarge the pic to the bee itself? because i dont know how to adjust the composition to make this pic interesting. aaa. haha. yup, this is a bunch of roses, mini roses :D

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/1000
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Cropped, Direct Positive preset, exposure and saturation enhancements, sharpening - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Ladybird - there were lots of ladybirds in the Rose Garden that day. i guess it was their mating season as it was spring that time. and summer baru la nak upload kan. haha. anyway, the colour reproduced by picasa is not that accurate and to be honest i hate it. sigh, need to start linking my pics to flickr then~

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/180
  
• Aperture: f5.6
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Cropped, Direct Positive preset, sharpening, post-crop vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

Tree trunk - we walked under the tree trunk to cross to the i-dunno-what garden, the hole's large enough for an adult to go through. hahaha. i dunno why there's a big hole under the tree tho, maybe its just natural :-" anyway, the misty look is caused by what, i dunno myself. maybe just from the bleeding light from above.

EXIF:

• Camera: Canon EOS 30D
• Shutter: 1/180
  
• Aperture: f4.0
  
• ISO: 100
  
• Focal length: 50 mm
  
• Mode: Aperture Priority
• Post-processing: Vibrance, saturation and contrast enhancement, sharpening, lens vignette - Adobe Lightroom 2
  

aaa, more and more people are going back home to their home country (macam la akunye home country lain kan) i.e. Malaysia. and lesser people left here to rot with BOREDOM -_-"

what else can i do, watching movies everynight don't really entertain me that much, playing pool+bowling will dig my pockets deeper :O haha. conclusion: i just cant wait to go back home! aaaaaa...nak grad cpt2!

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some things are better left unsaid, unknown, unspoken, uncovered. these are so typical.

still, i need to surrender to that. to live, to move on, to continue surviving. i have a life to live. i still have friends to cherish. parents to care. i will be strong...